Jaime-YWAM-India-2009-May-20

From Jaime's May 20, 2009 blog posted on Facebook:

Hey guys! We got into Delhi a few days ago!

It’s a HUGE city... way more intense then the towns I was staying in before.

Its over 100 degrees here always! Gah!

We're staying at the YMCA... therefore I've had that song in my head for 3 days straight.

Umm I saw the Taj Mahal yesterday!!! It was pretty amazing!

It's a tomb that this muslim king guy made for his wife who he loved a lot... who had 14 kids... no wonder she died. He was going to make another one but his son locked him up until he died so that he could be king... this is what I learned :)

Umm yeah I'm pretty much just eating as much ice cream as I can for the next few days and flying out on Sunday!

We went to McDonald’s... they only have chicken. 0_o dang holy cows!

I'm doing my final shopping run on Saturday I think... the shop keeper guys are CRAZY here... they're actually real scary! They chase you down the street begging you to buy their wooden elephants... I yelled at some guy yesterday... I didn't mean to but he was freaking me out!

We finished a big part of debrief today... I'm a little depressed and confused.

I've learned so much and... I donno... I feel like I did so much dumb stuff or something during Lecture... or maybe I just let myself be who I was and now I'm embarrassed because of this? I still kind of feel like the worst person in the world… even though I've been growing... gah it’s all hard to explain. I'm just nervous about a lot of things. Even in the last week here stuff with God had felt weird... and what’s going back to the base going to be like? And what is going home going to be like?! I have so many things I want to do and change at home... I know I've basically written all this before... yeah I'm guess I'm feeling what most people feel after DTS.

What’s going to happen to me?

And did I do what I was supposed to do?

Where do I belong now?

I was never really happy in Asheville or felt... yeah... and now this is over... do I just keep going to schools and making temporary friends... or?

I just feel kind of worn out and sick of everything... and I'm pretty sure everything is sick of me... I've LOVED my school... its just time to go home... but where is home?

Are people gonna be glad to see me for a while then forget about me again?

I donno. It’s all stupid. I know God’s gonna take care of me... I just feel so weird!

I need more ice cream.

Love you guys.

Thanks <3

See you all very soon!